Illustration © 2019 Fluffgar
I left my home planet ten years ago
and never looked back.
(couldn’t, anyway, no portholes
in economy class).
I meet folk at the bar and I always know:
they’ve got red-orange pigment like me
cooling fins on their neck, adapted for a scorched world,
chatting in the old tongue.
“I just really miss the gravity of home,
everywhere else I feel like a whale.”
I say nothing, remembering the hushed hell,
my neighbor threatening to buy me as his wife
every time I knocked over his watercatchers —
the ever-salted air, the bent figures of my parents,
who spent their working lives in the quarnium mines
and still dream of their lottery holiday, offplanet.
Even weirder when I get someone
from my own small shithole continent,
“Wow you used to go to M. Rozel’s restaurant?
Did M. McCarthy teach you history too?”
I discover she’s married to my high school sweetheart,
and wants me to stay and get slammed on fizzdrinks —
but I say, “Sorry, got work in the morning,”
thinking (as I sit on the airbus home
whizzing stealthily over neon ads
and interplanetary housing
dressed in a sweater!)
Ten goddamn lightyears
is not far enough.
© 2019 Paige Elizabeth Smith
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